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My Love Affair With Gym

on Oct 23 in Bloggin', Observations by Alicia tagged by Alicia

Gym and I have had an on again off again love affair for years. When we’re seeing each other regularly I love him! I feel better, physically and mentally. I feel stronger, healthier, happier. We’ll do this dance for months, sometimes years. Then there’s that one day that I have something to do, I can’t make it, I cancel. I tell myself don’t worry about it you can go without Gym for one day, and I do. I don’t go for one day. The following week I miss 2 days. I ease my guilt by saying I’ll go over the weekend, spend some extra time with Gym, it’ll be okay. I do, I go over the weekend but mentally I’m somewhere else. I’m not giving Gym my attention. I’m irritated that I’m spending my weekend with him. In the beginning I would willingly spend my weekends and any free time I had at Gym’s.  I start to feel like we’re growing apart. I don’t feel the same way about gym anymore. The days  I’m not there I’m riddled with guilt. I try to make time to see him but it begins to feel like a burden. I’m stressed and I start to resent Gym. It finally comes to the point where I need to break things off for my own good. I can’t let Gym have all the power in this relationship! More and more days pass between the times we see each other. Gym and I eventually just end. Months will go by and I’ll think of Gym and the time we spent together and I’ll get nostalgic. I’ve driven to his place and sat outside wanting to go in. I stare out the window as new and different women go in and out. I realize it’s over. We’ve grown apart. I need a fresh start.

I started seeing someone else. I call him LB. We spend hours just sitting together. His strong arms cradle me, he makes me feel so comfortable. We have the same interests, TV, movies, snacks even a good book! He’s much cozier than Gym. We’ve been together for some time now. Things were going great until recently. I’ve started to resent him. I resent him in an entirely different way then I resented gym. He never wants to go anywhere. All he does is sit in front of the TV. He never moves from that living room. Break ups are hard and unfortunately we live together which makes things even worse. But I can’t spend my life with someone who’s parents nameed him Lazy Boy!

I woke up today and decided to go see Gym. I know it may not be the smartest idea to try and rekindle our relationship. I’m older now, I’ve changed in body and mind. I don’t know if gym will accept me the same way he has in the past! I could be making a fool of myself crawling back to him like this. I guess I’ll have to take the risk!